Massively big hugs JwithJ, I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, but I am not sure what to say. I couldn't read and not let you know my heart goes out to you. You have come so far, I can't believe Bubs is nearly here, seems like yesterday we were in the TTC group lol.
I think from myself having a loss before this pregnancy I refused to believe it would result in an actual baby. So I spent the entire 1st trimester not letting myself get too excited, or bond, even at the 12 week scan. My DH would rub my belly and talk to bubs telling him to grow "big and strong, big and strong" and I would just look at him like "don't be silly, there may not be a baby yet". Well, I have managed to get past that, only as I had to, but still feel nervous that I may not get my baby in the end. But I figure once Bubs is here I will feel completely different, as I am sure you will too.

Hang in there you are right at the very end. All the best, and I look forward to seeing your Birth announcement xxx